A whole new year ahead of us. It’s always been my most favorite time of the year. After all the fun of Christmas Holidays, it’s time to get back to ‘work’. Now I’m very blessed to do something I love. Writing is my passion and sure, sometimes I don’t like deadlines and pressure, but all in all pressure is what I make it out to be. And when I don’t like something it’s time for changes.
I also love making lists. It’s been a particular hectic time for me the last few weeks. Instead of a relaxing Christmas time I had a lot to arrange and work on. My mom passed away on December 26th. I love her like crazy and I will miss her very much, but quite frankly I haven’t had much time to let it sink in, yet. I was her caretaker for the last years she was with us. And I loved every second of it.
Honestly, it was also a lot of work. I never knew it would take up so much time and energy, no matter how much I loved her and loved taking care of her. Does it sound very awful when I admit I slowly start to relax? Like I can let the tension fade from my shoulders, from my mind? Again, I loved her dearly but I also know she’s in a better place now. She doesn’t need my care anymore.
So, I’ve started a favorite hobby again, writing lists. I know Santa is gone, but I love my lists. As I write this it becomes apparent that I do so, since I have at least five lists surrounding my laptop. Grocery lists, to-do-lists for today and the rest of the week. And a list marked in red pen. Of all the things I really, really MUST do. NOW.
So my New Year’s resolution is (again) to keep making lists, but this time to finish what’s written on there. And a funny thing happens, once I start scratching things off my list, it seems I’m getting in a flow and I can’t stop. Do you know how liberating it feels to scratch? I’m making changes this year. As I am slowly getting used to being alive in 2023, I plan to make the very best of every minute. To enjoy life in every way possible. And to be grateful for all the changes.